Do you ever have moments, sometimes days, where you're heart actually seems to ache? I don't know, maybe it's just me, but every once in awhile I get in one of these moods and I swear I can feel that organ throbbing in my chest. It feels like I could cry, but somehow crying would be... a betrayal of the feeling. I'm probably not describing it very well, but there it is. If I think about it clearly and objectively, I can see a pattern to this odd "mood". It's usually when I loose focus on the big picture. It's when I forget just how much God has blessed me, when that certain person doesn't glance my way, that I get all caught up in myself.
The weirdest thing about it though, is that sometimes I like it.
Sometimes I want to feel miserable.
That's one thing I can't explain away.
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